NAUGHTY ;]

pi0rnack @ 2004-11-25T10:16:00

2004-11-25T15:37:57Z

SECTiON 1 [YOU.]
+ your name: Jenna
+ your gender: Female
+ age: 14
+ height: 5'5
+ hair color: Dark brown
+ eye color: Blue babii ;)
+ your location: Warren
+ fear: Being alone

SECTiON 2 [ HAVE YOU EVER ]
+ peed your pants? YEAH! from laughing to hard.
+ cheated on someone? no
+ fallen off the bed? yeah &then i feel when i tried walking
+ fallen for a relative? HELL NO
+ had plastic surgery? no
+ broke someones heart? yeah
+ had your heart broken? yes :[
+ had a dream come true? yes =/
+ done something you regret? many..
+ cheated on a test? yeah
+ been raped? how about no
+ broken a body part? no

SECTiON 3 [ CURRENTLY]
+ wearing ? Froggy pj pants & my vip shirt
+ listening to ? My best Friend - Tim Mcgraw
+ chewing - nothing
+ feeling? Sad, confused. So many emotions
+ reading ? The life you were meant to live
+ located ? Office
+ chatting with ? My baby kiki &sheila
+ watching ? the computer
+ should REALLY be ? cleaning. darn

SECTiON 4 [ DO YOU... ]
+ brush your teeth? yeah
+ like anybody? yes =[
+ have any piercings? yup. Ears and cartalige.
+ drive? i could be
+ believe in Santa Clause? nope.. not anymore
+ ever get off the computer? yeah

SECTiON 5 [ FRiENDS ]
+ who is your BESTfriend? KIKI =]
+ who is the loudest? dawn
+ who is the shyest? megan
+ who laughs the most? kiki
+ who have you known the longest? Dawn
+ who have you known the shortest? Megan
+ do you belong to a crew? Yes =]
+ do you hang out with the opposite sex? yes sir
+ do you trust your friends? yeah
+ are you a good friend? i think so
+ can you keep a secret? yep if i wanna keep it

SECTiON 6 [ THE LAST PERSON YOU...]
+ hugged ? Kiki
+ IMed ? Nikki
+ talked to on the phone - Aunt bb
+ yelled at ? DINO! ERR
+ fell in love with ? dino =[
+ tripped ? um.. i don't remember
+ turned down ? um..

SECTiON 7 [ PERSONAL ]
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? Kindergarden teacher
+ What was the worst day of your life? 07.12.04 =[ tear
+ What is your most embarrassing story? WHEN I RIPPED PANTS WHEN I SAT DOWN
+ What has been the best day of your life? 2.18.04
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? crush .. used to be a b/f
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? how i miss him

SECTiON 8 [ FAVORITE . . .]
+ Movie: a ton
+ Song: Its your love - Tim Mcgraw &Faith hill
+ Store: American eagle
+ Relative: Shan Shan =]
+ Sport: Swimming & Volleyball
+ Vacation Spot: CAMMEN ISLANDS
+ Ice Cream Flavor: CHOCOLATE.. YUM
+ Fruit: Cherries
+ Candy: Hershey
+ Holiday: My bday &Christmas
+ Day of the Week: Friday
+ Color: Blue
+ Magazine: Seventeen
+ TV show: LAGUNA BEACH BIITCHES!
+ Name for a Girl: Makenzie
+ Name for a Boy: Brice

SECTiON 9 [ DO YOU . . .]
+ Like to give hugs? - Yes
+ Like to walk in the rain? yep
+ Sleep with or without clothes on? on
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Dress up on Halloween? - yeah
+ Have a job? - nope
+ like to travel? - yeah
+ Like someone? - yeah =[
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? - side
+ Want to marry? - yeah
+ Have a goldfish? - brother does
+ Have stuffed animals? - yeah
+ Go on vacation? - yeah

[ WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT . . .]
+ Abortion: its sad
+ Eating Disorders: stupid but if your insecure.
+ Summer: fun =]
+ Tattoos: fine if theres like 2 or 3
+ Piercing: some are hot ;) but i hate gages
+ Make-up: Makes me look not as ugly
+ Drinking: Fine

SECTiON 11 [ THIS OR THAT]
+ Pierced nose or tongue? tounge
+ serious or funny? - funny
+ Single or taken? - taken
+ Simple or Complicated? - simple
+ Law or anarchy? - law
+ MTV or BET? -mtv
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? - 7th heaven
+ Sugar or salt? - sugar
+ Chocolate or flowers? - flowers
+ color or Black-and-white photos? black &white look cool
+ Sunrise or sunset? - sunset
+ M&M's or Skittles? - both
+ Rap or Rock? - Rock
+ Stay up late or sleep in? - stay up late
+ Hot or cold? - hot
+ Sun or moon? - sun
+ Diamond or Ruby? - diamond
+ TV or radio? - TV
+ Left or Right? - right
+ 10 acquaintances or one best friend? - one bestfriend
+ Kids or no kids? Kids
+ Cat or dog? -Dog
+ Mustard or ketchup? Ketchup
+ newspaper of magazine? - magazine .
+ Rain or snow? - snow
+ Lace or satin? - lace
+ A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? - lifetime of friendship
+ Happy or sad? happy
+ Corduroy or plaid? coruroy
+ sneakers or sandals? - sandals
+ McDonald's or Burger King? - McDonalds
+ Mexican or Italian food? - Italian
+ Lights on or off? - eithers fine
+ Candy or soda? - Soda
+ A house in the woods or the city? - city
+ Pepsi or Coke? - Pepsi

pi0rnack @ 2004-11-07T09:06:00

2004-11-07T14:15:04Z

Thanks to all the people that left me comments =]
it meants alot to me.

Jade - Yeah we are going through the exact same thing. Dino runs my life just like Aric runs yours. And you know i don't even understand anything because now he has a stupid new g/f. I don't understand whats so much better about her. Shes almost like me - i mean she makes him the center of her world & yet dino told me i was to "in love" with him. Yeah well thats cause i actually loved him and he was my life. And i know im hurting myself even more when i talk to him but theres always that little bit of me that hopes everyday that if i keep talking to him that he'll come back to me. And then theres that feeling of comfort. I dont care what he does to me - i don't care if he was a fucking jail person that raped people - i would still be able to feel comfortable around him, just cause i know who he is. Its so sad that he is my life. I cant let go of him. I wish everyday that he will come back to me. And everynight i go to sleep crying. He seriously haunts me - every dream i have has him in it. It won't go away & your like the first person that is actually going through the same thing. Its so hard & everyone thinks they understand but they don't! Im always here for you if you need me & thanks for being here for me. =]

Sheila - Thank you. Its ok to say you understand. You sorta do, you just didn't do all the things i did with dino. But thank you so much for being here for me. Its hard for me to just let go & you and jade actually understand. THANK YOU =]

All you other bitches can just die
Don't you fucking dare say that
its going on for to long - because
all you bitches don't know what fucking
love is and how it controls you!

pi0rnack @ 2004-11-06T21:32:00

2004-11-07T02:38:19Z

Mk yeah i am so fucking confused. Ok this kid josh - yeah so fucking hot as hell & i really like him. But on the other hand theres that fucker Dino. He seriously runs my whole fucking life. I don't care what you fucking people tell me - yeah let him go. Ok go through what i did & then if you still feel the same then you can tell me that. If he really means something to you.. youd go through anything to keep him - yeah so fuck of bitches.

No one understands. Maybe jade. and thats like
fucking it. if your in love you can't just fucking
let it go. Do you know how hard it is. I fucking
told him everything. He was my bestfriend. He was
everything. he supported me through everything.

BROKEN!

pi0rnack @ 2004-10-31T12:31:00

2004-10-31T18:21:33Z

What is your name?: Jenna
Are you named after anyone?: nope
What's your screename?: xo butrflybabii
Would you name a child of yours after you?: maybe.. idk
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: hm.. Brice =]
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: Um.. i like my name!
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: YES! Gina .. ugh
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: yes

Basics

Your gender: Female bitchezz
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight
Single?: yeah =/
If not, do you want to be?:
Birthdate: Jan. 26th
Your age: 14
Age you act: 16
Age you wish you were: 16
Your height: 5'5
Eye color: blue
Happy with it?: yeah
Hair color: dark brown
Happy with it?: yeah
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty
Have any pets?: yeah... dog
Whats your job?: don't have one
Piercings?: yeah 3
Tattoos?: no
Obsessions?: lets just not say that..
Addictions?: yeah ... HE is my addiction
Do you speak another language?: no
Have a favorite quote?: yeah sure
Do you have a webpage?: no

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

Do you live in the moment?: not anymore
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: ??
Do you have any secrets?: alot of them ; ]
Do you hate yourself?: now i do
Do you like your handwriting?: sometimes
Do you have any bad habits?: i bite my nails
What is the compliment you get from most people?: nice boobs, nice ass
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: one obesession
What's your biggest fear?: the dark
Can you sing?: HA NO
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no
Are you a loner?: no
What are your #1 priorities in life?: lets not go there
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: maybe
Are you a daredevil?: somewhat
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: alot of stuff
Are you passive or agressive?: agressive
Do you have a journal?: what do you think this is
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength + weakness : Dino =/
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: My stupid fatness
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: no
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: somethings.. yeah
Do you think life has been good so far?: not since dino broke up w/ me
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: dont get to involved emotionally
What do you like the most about your body?: my eyes
And least?: my stomache
Do you think you are good looking?: idk..
Are you confident?: i was
What is the fictional character you are most like?: psh idk
Are you perceived wrongly?: i dn't think so

Do You...

Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Read the newspaper?: no
Pray?: sometimes
Go to church?: no
Talk to strangers who IM you?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: my teddy.. lol
Take walks in the rain?: yeah so no one can see that im crying
Talk to people even though you hate them?: yeah
Drive?: i will be soon
Like to drive fast?: mhmm

Would or Have You Ever?

Liked your voice?: yeah
Hurt yourself?: almost
Been out of the country?: yeah
Eaten something that made other people sick?: yeah
Been in love?: yes.. it was beautiful. The best time of my life </33
Done drugs? no
Gone skinny dipping?: yes
Had a medical emergency?: no
Had surgery?: no
Ran away from home?: tried too
Played strip poker?: strip spin the bottle.. if that counts
Gotten beaten up?: nikki gave me a fat lip
Beaten someone up?: yeah
Been picked on?: not really
Been on stage?: yeah
Slept outdoors?: yeah
Thought about suicide?: not that far into that
Pulled an all nighter?: no
If yes, what is your record?:
Gone one day without food?: more like 2 weeks
Talked on the phone all night?: yea
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yeah --
Slept all day?: no
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: yeah
Kissed the same sex?: no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: YES
Had a dream that came true?: Yeah.. i fell in love with a great person </33 but then he broke my heart
Broken the law?: yeah
Met a famous person?: um.. i don't remmeber
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yeah
On purpose?: yeah
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yeah
Stolen anything?: yeah but he knew i stole it
Been on radio/tv?: um.. yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: yeah
Bungee jumped?: no
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeha all the time.. and it makes me cry

Beliefs

Belive in life on other planets?: no
Miracles?: yep
Astrology?: yeah
Magic?: hm.. NO
God?: yeah
Satan?: no
Santa?: no
Ghosts?: yes
Luck?: yeah
Love at first sight?: yeah.. i went through it
Witches?: no
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: i wish
Do you wish on stars?: no

Deep Theological Questions

Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yeah
Do you think God has a gender?: um.. yes
Do you believe in organized religion?: yeah
Where do you think we go when we die?: to a beautiful place

Friends

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who is your best friend?: Nikki and Dawn
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Dawn and Dino
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: idk..
Your favourite inside joke?: Is it in color? um.. theres to many to write
Thing you're picked on most about?: um.. my huge tits
Who's your longest known friend?: Sarah
Newest?: Megan
Shyest?: um.. none of them
Funniest?: Nikki and Dawn
Sweetest?: Megan
Closest?: Nikki and Dawn
Weirdest?: Dawn
Smartest?: Megan
Ditziest?: NIKKI!
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Sarah, and um. dino
Friend you have lost?: Anel
Last person you talked to online?: Megan
Who do you talk to most online?: Yeah
Who are you on the phone with most?: Nikki
Who do you trust most?: Dawn
Who listens to your problems?: Dino
Who do you fight most with?:Dino
Who's the nicest?: Nikki, megan and dawn
Who's the most outgoing?: DAWN
Who's the best singer?: megan
Who's on your shit-list?: hm.. the people i hate
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: no
Who's your second family?: Nikkis house
Do you always feel understood?: no
Who's the loudest friend?: DAWN
Do you trust others easily?: too easily
Who's house were you last at?: nikki's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: DINO =[
Do your friends know you?: Some of me.
Friend that lives farthest away: Sam

Love and All That

Do you consider love a mistake?: No
What do you find romantic?: Gosh.. this is gonna make me cry. So i won't explain it
Turn-on?: Dark hair.. and really romantic
Turn-off?: cockyness
First kiss?: Dino

pi0rnack @ 2004-10-27T19:14:00

2004-10-27T23:23:20Z

I am: Depressed
I love: the person i was in love with =[
I hate: DINO!
I fear: centipedes
I hope: i will be happy soon
I hear: the tv
I crave: chocolate
I regret: febuary 18th
I cry: every night
I care: about the only person i really shouldn't care about
I trust: to many people
I always: cry
I believe: not in myself
I feel alone: all the time
I listen: to no one
I hide: my feelings or at least try to
I drive: Nikki crazy
I sing: songs
I write: about how love fucks me over
I run: from my problems
I miss: Dino
I learn: that love can also be bad
I feel: pain
I know: i will get over this
I say: that i hate dino, yet still love him
I succeed: in swimming and volleyball
I dream: that things will get better
I wonder: if i'll ever be happy
I want: my ex =[
I have: no one
I give: nothing
I recieve: pain
I fight: alot lately =[
I need: to be loved, and to be happy

pi0rnack @ 2004-10-27T18:37:00

2004-10-27T22:42:28Z

I don't know if i should be writing in this =[

This haven't been so fine and dandy lately! We'll actually they haven't been ever since Dino broke up with me. Im not allowed to see him anymore due to things i won't mention on here. I don't really know how to handle my feeling anymore. It really sucks ass being as depressed as i am, and i think Nikkis really pissed at me for it. You know, people are trying to understand, but they never will.

ATTENTiON: no one will understand, so don't even try. Im not gonna waste my time telling you my feelings when all i will get in return is I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL! FUCK NO YOU DON'T!!!!

Im sick of feeling as shitty as i am.
What does she have that i don't -- besides being muslim??
I feel like crying....

pi0rnack @ 2004-08-19T23:52:00

2004-08-18T03:55:07Z

01. Who are you, what's our relationship?:
02. How long have you known me?:
03. Tell me one good thing about myself?:
04. When you first saw me, what was your impression?:
05. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
06. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
07. Describe me in 3 words:
08. Name 5 things I love:
09. Do you think I'm good looking?:
10. How would you describe me to someone?:
11. Would you ever date me?:
12. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
13: What do you like most about me?:
14: If we could spend a day together, what would we do?:
15: Have we ever gotten in a fight?:
16: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?:
17. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
18. What do you think my weakness is?:
19. Do you think I'll get married?:
20. What makes me happy?:
21. What makes me sad?:
22. What reminds you of me?:
23. If you could give me anything, what would it be?:
24. When's the last time you saw me?:
25. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
26. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
27. Are you going to put this on your Journaland see what I say about you?:
29. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?:
30. What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
31. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
32. Would you make a move on me?:
33. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?:

Hm..

2004-08-18T03:40:32Z

Im writing in this, because im bored.

I woke up @ 7:30 in the middle of my extremely great dream + i had to go swimming. So i get there + i dont know which locker room to go in. Their pointing me in all these different directions - so i just put my bag on the bleachers.

So i feel the pool + just great ITS FREEZING. It felt like they melted ice cubes. It was so cold that my boobs got bigger =[ It was actually pretty funny. Yeah then we got to do starting blocks + Tina beat me =[. Yeah tina peed in the urian. It was halarious.

So i got home @ 10. Took a shower + then Shay came over + i had to babysit her. Shes only like 5 weeks old. She slept so it was good. Then Dawn came over. =] Shes a funny one.

Me + Dawn went to leasons. 10 guys beeped at us. We were counting. Then on the way back - these guys were like SUCK OUR DICKS. I was gonna pee my pants - i thought it was perrty funny. Then we came back home + talked to Ivan ;] That sexy thing. Then me + dawn went swimming + then she went home.

It was a good day. Now im really bored.
But im talking to Jonny + Ivan =]
Lets hope they can keep me entertained.

Idk..

2004-08-17T16:27:22Z

I don't know why im writing in this thing again. It ruins my life.

If you like my layout : cmnt =]

pi0rnack @ 2004-08-11T10:17:00

2004-08-09T14:19:27Z

im not writing in this anymore.
I don't need this stupid journal
i just need Dino. Thats all i want.

Until i get Dino back - no more of this!

pi0rnack @ 2004-08-10T21:38:00

2004-08-09T01:39:51Z

ME AND DINO BROKE UP.
I WANT TO DIE. HE WAS
MY EVERYTHING!

I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE.

pi0rnack @ 2004-08-10T16:12:00

2004-08-08T20:15:23Z

I hate my life. Everything is going wrong. I really need someone to talk to. =[

Yeah when we were on the stupid trip that ruined everything i got into a fight with my dad. So now he won't let me see Dino today. So then i call Dino and right away he has to go and then he gonna hang out with the cripple. God it just seems like he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I hate my life.

I can't stop crying. everything sucks.
No one cares though. I want to die.

vacation

2004-08-08T02:17:10Z

Welp Hello =] I just got home from vacation like an hour ago. Im so happy to be home. =]

Heres how vacation went:
We left Monday around 12. We got to the Double J ranch around 3:30ish. It was old + rustic and boring looking. Yeah so we got the cabin #9. It was small. The beds upstairs were super hard like rocks + there was a pull out bed + a bed in some room that had a jacuzzi. The bathroom was nasty + everything was gross.

The next day, Tuesday, we went and checked out everything. They had a game room, ice cream store/shop, some dining/dance hall, an awesome pool, + a volleyball court + stuff. We went to some beach. It wasent that much fun. I played dodge ball w/ my dad + then my mom + some softball. Then we went back to the nasty cabin + went swimming in the awesome pool =] I went down the huge waterslide. It was like a flippin rollercoaster. Then i called Dino - the conversation didn't go so well. =/

So Wednesday was perrty cool. =] We all went to the pool for a little bit. My mom finally went down the slide. She only went down twice. Then i went up like 7 more times. The lifeguard up their thought i was 19!! Holy smokes. He goes: How old are you? I go 14 + he goes i thought you were 19. Your lying to me. I go no im not. Then the next time i went up - he goes. What year were you born + i go 1990 + he goes i still don't believe you. Then the next time i went up - he goes: I bet you can walk into a club + just go whuddup without anyone knowin` your real age. Im like: Yup. Then me + my mom went + played volleyball + some lady invited us to adult volleyball. Staff vs. Guests - That was alot of fun. The dude from the water slide was going. My mom told him how good my serve was. =] So we went their @ 10 + the staff won 2 games. Thats ok - EVERYONE was scared of my serve =] It was so cute too - their was this old couple - about 80 + they were on travel volleyball teams. They are soo good. Yeah i kicked sand in one of the staffs face - it was funny. Yeah so we took the nasty shuttle back + got home by 12:30.

Yup + then Thursday Becca + Ronnie + Franko came. =] First we went to the pool + awaited for their arrival. Then i stuck w/ then forever while my parents + brother went shopping in pentwater. First we went swimming + then we met Ronnies friend - John. Then we ate ice cream + then me and becca straightened our hair. Then me + becca + franko went + played volleyball + then we went out to Dinner @ the sundance. Then we went back + played volleyball with Becca, my mom, Franko, Ronnie + John. Then this girl [ forgot her name ] + her friend came to play. My mom made this funny joke + i thought after the joke he said hot boy - so his name was hot boy the rest of the night. Yeah + it was supper funny when Ronnie + John fell. Almost peed my pants. Then Ronnie + John went to a bar w/ the staff + bought us free drinks while we stood outside. Guess who showed up? Carl [ lifeguard at the slide ] - Hah i started laughing. So john sung a song for us. =] Hes a good singer. Then i spent the night in aunt francines hotel.

Fun Fun. Then Friday Becca + Ronnie + My mom + Aunt Franko went horse back riding while i went back to the cabin + took a shower. Then we went out to breakfast + left for my aunt Sandy's house. Yeah we got their + went to pent water to go shopping w/ becca + the gang + then headed back to my aunt Sandy's again. Yeah i watched TV the rest of the night being super bored. But then my mom got me up becuase i got to drive Uncle Tommy's GOLF CART! Woo. Yeah so i drove my mom, login, + jake around a dirt rode. OMG - then the funniest thing happened. I had to get out of the cart so my mom could pull the cart backwards back into the garage. Ok so - She went to back it up + the gas peddle got stuck + she ran into a mini fridge + then crashed that fridge into a bigger one. Then she drove + parked the cart like nothing happened. Omg i swear to god i almost started peeing. I was laughing for 10 minutes straight. HALARIOUS!! Yeah then i went to bed + Jake was singing to me. =]

Today [ Saturday ] i got up around 11:30 because i was bored + wanted to go home. Yeah then i went downstairs - had no breakfast + went back upstairs + slept - until jake jumped on my back. Yeah then Login + their dog came over. I was scared of the dog so i stayed in the room for about 20 minutes until i went down to see it. It was nice actually. Yeah then i made mac + cheese which tasted gross. Then i went + layed out + caught my first fish ever. It was a huge mino + i caught it with a net. Then me + jake paddled to the dock + went back cuz their was no fish. Then me + my mom went for a paddle boat ride for 30 minutes. Then i called Dino - Of course he wasent home. Then we ate + left =] Im so happy im home. The vacation was getting super boring.

About through that whole trip i called Dino + Kiki. Yeah great news huh? - Dino got 2 tatoos. It sucks. Yup. Our relationship is in the dumps right now. He never told me he loved me for everytime i called him. =[ I pretty much cried everynight. So then after about 2 nights of crying my mom didn't let me call him anymore. I called Kiki twice cuz the rest of the times the stupid phone never worked. I had to stand under a tree to call people. Stupid cowboy place had no powerlines. =[

So overall the vacation was ok. The funniest part was when my mom couldnt stop the golf cart. Yup. =] Well i hope i can see Dino tomorrow + if i can't - i swear to god i don't know what i'll do. I just won't talk to him. This whole thing with him not wanting to see me anymore is starting to make me pissed + depressed.

I shall update whenever i want to again.

=[ Sad

2004-08-02T02:58:02Z

I leave tomorrow - 10 o`clock. =[ Im gonna cry. Im gonna miss so many people - my baby + kiki the most. At least i got my baby's shorts with me =] I'll sleep in them.

I only talked to Dino tonight for 30 minutes. He had to go + take his uncle home? I don't know .. maybe his uncle was drunk? At least we got to talk. I miss him already. Thank god the trips only for a week.

I'll be back Saturday night or afternoon. My mom said it depends on the wheather. Lets hope its in the afternoon so i can see everyone. =] Whoever has the number to reach me - well you better be using that number for the whole week!! =]

Lets hope the vacation goes as hoped. Everythings in walking distance so it won't be as bad as i thought. At least i have a cell phone to call my baby + kiki. If i didn't - i'd probley die. Ugh - now i feel like crying. Im so emotional.

Memeber Buddies - Call me if ya know the number =] It will make me so happy - but i might now answer - ya know i'll be talking to Dino or Kiki! Its always worth a try though! Yeah i'll update when i come home.

pi0rnack @ 2004-08-03T20:57:00

2004-08-02T01:10:22Z

Today - I woke up around 10 + talked to KiKi for a lil + then layed out for like 3 hours. Then i had to fikken paint the fence + it splashed all over me - like dots - so now i look like that carrot top guy from tv. =[ Then surprisingly Dino showed up [ yeah thats the last time he will see me the way i was ] So i got dressed + tried to wash off the stupid paint - psh didn't work!

So yeah like I said - Dino came over around 4. He had to leave at 6 though which really sucked. I only got to see him 2 hours before i left for a week. =[ I cried for an hour after he left + im about to cry again just talking about it. He said he'd call me up their - cuz he has my moms cell number. He better call or i'll be sad =[

My baby just called me =] I already miss him. Im bringing his shorts on the trip so i have something of his. Well i'll update later - gotta talk to my baby!

Trip

2004-08-01T14:47:46Z

We leave tomorrow for our trip =[

Today im supposed to be seeing Dino. I really hope he comes + i swear i will cry my eyes out if he doesn't. I haven't even kissed him since 5 days ago - Sad =[ Yeah well in the mean time - cuz Dino's going shopping @ 12 - i gotta nasty pack. I really don't want to go on this trip. I would if i weren't going for a whole week. My parents want to make me horseback ride. Im scared to death of horses - i will never ride one! Its gonna suck when i come back too - AnAl will be home + i won't get to see Dino as much. He said this: When you get home i have to balance it out between you, AnAl, mo + david so i will probley see you every 4 days. If he sees me every 4 days i misewell break up w/ him - thats like once a frikken week. =[

Im sad right now. I don't want to leave. Were going to the cabin thing till friday + then going to stupid aunt sandy`s for a day. Whoop dee doo, can't you just see the excitment on my face? NOT! Im gonna make this trip a living hell for my parents. They wouldn't let me stay home - their making me go. Im just going to complain. =] Thats one thing im good at. Yeah now i gotta start packing =[

<33

=]

2004-07-31T19:59:15Z

Wow yesterday was so great! =]

I went to the mall with KiKi [ Great lakes crossing ] It was so much fun. First we walked around in a circle because we got lost in the huge mall. Then we saw Murphy Lee [ from softball ] Then we went in some places + i got the ashlee simpson cd =] Welp then me + kiki got our cartilage pierced =] I held Kiki's hand when i got it done + almost crushed her fingers. It hurt but not as bad as i expected.

Then we went + ate. I left my sweatshirt their.. blonde me. Then we were sitting on these rocking things + this kid - i think he was half retarded i wasen't sure, he was looking at us + smiling + he did that for like 5 minutes. I thought it was histarical. Then we were sitting outside waiting for my mom + these girls walk by + go look at those hoes. We were cracking up because they were the ones wearing skanky clothes.

Then we went + got smoothies cuz we walked by + tasted super good samples. So my dad gave us 7 bucks + we go: Will 7 bucks buy us 2 medium smoothies. He goes: Their 8.57. Im like crap were so poor we dont' have enough. So he goes: I'll just give it to you. Omg it was so great. I told Dino + he said its because we have big boobs =] Lol.. me and Nikki are the lucky ones.. sometimes. They suck at times.

Welp then Kiki came over + we watched some movie that had this nasty girl w/ no boobs + she showed them alot. The movie made no sense. Then we went to sleep + i told nikki she couldn't sleep on her pierced ear because i can't. Mine was killing me, but lucky Kiki she got it done before so hers didn't hurt. Then we woke up @ 7 to let the nerd dog out to pee. Thank god my mom got up so we went back to sleep.

We woke up around 10:30 + i ate cereal + we watched tv. Then Kiki had to go home around 12 but she didn't leave till 1 cause our mommas were talking. =] Yup + now Dinos comming over + then me him kiki and his friend david are gonna go to the movies later to see The Village - Scurry! I'll update later bizzo!

<33.

Great Lakes Crossing

2004-07-30T16:13:42Z

I woke up extremly early - due to my stupid period. Then i sat on the couch for like 2 hours because my dad was working in the office. Then my mom wanted me to go to great lakes crossing. I didn't really wanna go at first cuz i really want to see Dino - I miss him so much. But then I told myself i'll see him tomorrow and sunday ALL DAY!! So i invited Nikki to come shopping with me - shes going to. =] I can't see Dino after though cuz their mad at eachother, but he told me it was ok to hang out w/ Nikki today + he'll go play basketball. I love him so much! Hes perfect.

<33

pi0rnack @ 2004-07-31T22:15:00

2004-07-30T02:35:45Z

Today was just a wreck. Not one thing went right. I woke up + started my period. Then i go outside to tan + theirs absolutly no sun. So i call Dino + he doesnt want to come over before the game because 2 hours isn't enough for him. So then i go to my softball game earlier to work on my catching - yeah thats the only thing that went good - i got alot better. Then after the game i went to go get ice cream + i didn't relaly wanna eat + felt liek puking. Then Dino came over + i told him how i really felt about stuff. He understood i guess. Then i just started crying because my life is going downhill. I gained like 7 pounds + im insecure with my body more than ever now. I don't even want Dino seeing me in a bathing suit anymore.

I didn't really mean to cry. I appoligized to him for it. Its just such a build up of what im going through + i truly feel that i can tell him that cuz he will help me through it. He also told me why he hasen't been seeing me as much as he used to. That made me happy finally being told that. He had to leave at 9:30 though - i just got mad. its another one of his excuses. But you know.. i will see him tomorrow.

Yeah then i read my messages + everything just sucked. Ok me + Nikki + Dino + his friend were all gonna go to the movies tomorrow. So i ask Nikki if shes still going + she said yes. Then she goes but Sarah's going too. That just made me want to blow up because who said she could invite Sarah to something we already planned. So then Dino told Nikki his feeling about the whole situation + then Nikki goes off on me + tells me that if im doing anything with Dino that i shouldnt bother to even talk to her or see her while hes with me. So then i told her my true feelings about everything. I hope she understands.

This is what i said:
Ok im not trying to be mean but this is how i feel and you need to know. I know what Dino's going through right now because in a way you've put me in the same situation. It makes me feel really crappy when you always hang out w/ sarah and dont invite me anywhere and when you guys are hanging out i go out of my way to include sarah. Then when you told me i had to leave early that one day because your going to the movies with sarah i thought that was rude because when i asked you to go shopping i had to include sarah because i guess you can't tell her to leave early. Then i thought it was even more rude when we had plans to go to the movies and you just invite sarah when WE had it planed. I feel like im being treated unfairly. And no i am not jelous of sarah, i understand you have more friends, it just bothers me because you do it all the time. Im glad i got that off my chest because thats how i really feel. Im not trying to be mean, i just want you to know thats how i feel and i hope you can understand.

And thats how i feel. Yeah well all because of that me + Dino are going to the movies by ourselfs tomorrow. I can't always invite sarah everywhere when me + nikki have plans + have her expect everyones going to be happy with the dicision. Don't get me wrong.. i dont hate sarah - but we already planned this why does she have to be involved? She doesnt have to spend the night again. I don't know - this is just making me go crazy.

I'll tell you about by game: I got their @ 5 so megan can help me drop when its a grounder when its pitched. It helped me so much. This was the first game i caught my best. I caught so good that when i was done - i couldn't stand anymore. Dino came too - i was really happy about that. =] I made a mistake though.. some pickle situation. My dad yelled at me for not doing it last time so i did it this time + it just wasen't right. I shook it off though =] We lost the game though [ 27 -10 ] But their the 1st place team - above pirates. If we had a little better pitching it would of been a close game. [ * No offense to you Jen - You did great out their. They just can't hit off amanda! * ]

Im going..
C ya <33

Whatever

2004-07-29T19:02:54Z

My day really super sucks now! =[ Dinos not comming over anymore - cuz we'll only have 2 hours. I don't know whats happened to him - he used to do anything to come over just for 2 hours. Now its like nothing to him. He used to be so happy to see me + charished every moment - now he says my house is boring. Everythings starting to change. Our relationships now how it used to be. Im getting more and more depressed everyday. I remember i told him last night i was depressed and he just goes: Im sorry. He didnt ask why or anything. Hes comming to my game later tonight - but im not gonna talk to him. Hes been making me so sad lately. He knows im leaving soon + doesnt want to take the effort to see me. Blah! =[

Im crying...

pi0rnack @ 2004-07-31T13:20:00

2004-07-29T17:33:37Z

So i woke up to my [ girl problem ] today. =[ Yes - this day officially sucks now. Dinos supposed to wake up early today, so he can come over - for once! Yeah, i woke up + tanned until my cramps hurt to where i couldn't flippin breath. Then i came inside and ate 2 grilled cheese + watched tv. Tomorrow me Kiki and Sarah are gonna go shopping. Me and kiki wanna get skirts for later that night ; ] Then idk what time, but were gonna go to the movies w/ Dino + his friend David [ for kiki ]. Were gonna go see The Village - scurry!

Write Later <3

Aunt Franko`s

2004-07-28T22:49:36Z

Aunt Francine`s was fun! =] We got their around 11:30. Me + Becca played ping pong, then watched some tv. Big Nose was there [ Tina`s friend ] he was scary looking. Yup then me + becca went swimming in her awesomly big pool. =] First we played catch in the deep end while tredding water, then we did some strokes [ only butterfly and breast stroke ] because we were bored. Then we played volleyball with a ball that was almost as tall as me, yup + then I did a flip off the diving board! I flipped so fast that i could have done a second one almost. It was cool! =]

Now i gotta go nasty babysit for the Fish`s. Their cupboard smells nasty. Thank god im not eating over their like last time. Yeah i'll probley just play games on the computer, those kids aren't hard to watch. My momma won't let me take her cell phone though [ damnit ] I like when people call me on it - its fun! I was hoping to have it so Dino could call me when he gets home. Oh well i guess..

Im really hoping tomorrow that Dino will get up early [ before 2 ] because i want him to come over. I can't see him today + didn't see him yesterday or the past 3 days. I really miss him alot. I haven't talked to him much either lately. He seems so busy now. I just hope he doens't change when Butt [ anAl .aka. Barbie ] comes home. The nasty thing comes home right when i get back from my vacation. So i gotta make plans with Dino now like 2 weeks ahead of time, cuz he'll be with ANAL all the time. =[

C ya . <33

=[

2004-07-28T03:22:03Z

Today perrty much sucked. After i got home - i didnt feel that good. So around 3 i called Dino - come to find out .. he cant go to my game. Yeah so their goes seeing him for 3 effin days! So then i get ready for my game + my contacts hurt me, so now i waste all my eye drops for one day. Great.

So we get to the softball game + its raining + cold + we didn't have enough players. 7 people showed up then at the last minute katie showed up. Great, now we gotta play. Yeah - i started off playing second. So murphy throws down to 2nd - katie wasen't their. Then it happened again. So 1 stolen base turned into 2 stolen bases. Then coach switched me to outfield + i freeze to death + have to back up the stupid people who can't stop a ball. So we lost [ not like anyone cared ]

So yeah, then i come home + my momma got me some food + then Dino called. It wasent the greatest conversation. He asked how my game went.. blah blah blah. Yeah then he wanted to get off the phone cuz he has nothing to talk about. Then i just got really sad because we never talk anymore + i havent seen him in 3 days + i can't see him for another 2 days - adding up to 5 days. =[ It just sucks ass.

Tomorrow at 10 were leaving to go to my aunt francines. =] They have a big pool with a diving board - i hope its fun, but i'd rather be with my baby. Yeah then we gotta come back at 6 + i gotta go nasty babysit these stupid kids who pee their pants [ The fishes ] Lets hope she pays me good. I'll just play kaseys games on the computer cuz i don't feel like babysitting.

I leave in 6 days for my vacation. =[ Thank god for cell phones - im gonna call Dino + kiki everyday. Im gonna miss Dino the most [ sorry kiki ] because we never talk or see eachother anymore.. really. Yep well - thats my day.

Woo Hoo

2004-07-27T16:48:35Z

Yesterday was fun! After i got done babysitting - i went over kiki's house. Then we tried to figure out how to work the dvd player - that didn't go so good.. kiki broke the tv. Then we went online + talked to people. Yeah, then i called my baby. Now he might not go to my game today =[ Im so sick of this. He can never do anything anymore - its always " i'll try " Yeah - suposidly he got in a fight with his parents yeseterday, + won't even tell me what its about - yet he can tell me anything?!? - Right? I feel like our relatoinships getting worse.. but im not gonna let myself think that way - i know its not! Yeah then we watched Enough [ very good movie ] yep, then went to bed around 3. Then uh.. my mom woke me up @ 10:30 by calling kiki's house. So i had to leave by 11:30 for a chiropractor appointment. The appointment was stupid.

I`ll update later.

pi0rnack @ 2004-07-28T20:50:00

2004-07-27T00:52:22Z

I miss my baby =[
I wanna see him.. badly!
^ im sucha dork..